23rd and 24th Dec

Finally the day came and starts the beginning of my leaves. 

23rd Dec: kind of got into argument with S****** on paying the amount for a bus ticket which I did not travel. She did not care to tell me before the trip that the ticket couldn't be cancelled. Something she has to accept. I can't argue and fight with an emotional mind. I try to find out some solution instead of pin point or blaming anyone for anything. In the evening met P***** over tea and had a good time. On our way back saw and met G********* and her parents. Seems whatever has transpired in the last few days she has taken it personally and still thinking about it seriously. Arrey yaar move on. People planned, went and came back from the trip. And continuously thinking negative about it won't lead anywhere. Anyways we spoke as if nothing happened.

24th Dec: was suppose to meet My school pals over breakfast - S****** & P*********. Was suppose to reach there by 8 but got late by an hour. Good thing was they waited for me and only I reached we had breakfast. It was nice meeting them.

Went for shopping to Phoenix and bought few stuff. In the evening went to meet the Zumba folks in a small get-together. It was so much if fun. Indeed women becomes strong once she gets married and when she give birth to child and raises them. So much of laughter - just loved it - touchwood. May this group grow and we cherish each other's presence.

Peace and Merry Christmas! 

Hmmm....

Didn't knew what to put as a title of this post. So ended up with hmmm....

Pune visit came as an eye opener for me.Good that I went there. I thought I knew about people who are in my life. Santosh was amazed to hear that I am in his city. He invited me over to his place. I said it would be awkward for everyone at home. He said no it would be fine. Then in a shocking voice he said that I will come to know lot many things about him. I asked him what that would be..he said his marital status- he is married. I asked him he never told or shared about this with me. His reply stunned me. He said I never asked about it. I've been interacting with this guy close to 5 yrs now and not once he revealed about his marital status. Instead he had sent me messages like "like u and share whatever you feel like" "great to have a Frd like you". Friends don't hide such things and married guy won't send a message like that. Won't talk to this guy again. To hell with him. Felt sorry for the women who married him.

I feel am vulnerable right now. It's like an open wound which needs to be healed.i don't want to fall for anyone right now. But his (guy at work)eyes says something else at times. And how he behaves at times. He is far younger to me.... Let's not dwell deeper into it. The more I think about his eyes more I feel attracted towards him. Oh ... I don't want to fall in this trap again... He is a nice chap though- but no. On one side I say Not now. Let me be with peace. But this feeling is strong I tell your that I feel like giving up..... Hate to go thru this.....

Peace!