Crush in my dream ;-)

Wew I saw you in one of my dreams yesterday nite...!!!

The dream was like this:: In our school there was some kind of English test which we were suppose to take.One of my old school friend (Bandana) was also there & was very much prepared for the test whereas I wasnt. The teacher walked into the class & one by one she started asking each one of us whether are we prepared for the test or not. The moment she took my name there was thundering claps from the class. The teacher didnt ask me anything & i have to take the test. I saw him taking one of the seats in one of the rows. after the question paper were distributed, he walked upto me & pulled my nose and cheek & said "You liar".I stood up amaziingly & then shook hands with him.

Him is no one but one of my ex-crushes.

Really wish that I get to have atleast a coffee date with him ;-)

November 26, '08

I havent watched anything else except News channels in the past 2-3 days. When my manager changed the channel from CNN to some indian news channel I didnt take it seriously. But when i came close to TV only then I realised that its something big thats happening in Mumbai. Horrific.... terrible.... those 8 hours in the office I kept closely watching the news channel.Next 2-3 days it was only TV nothing else.They bombed Taj, Oberoi - one of the top notch hotels of India. A week back there was a documentary on Taj on one of the channels. I guess it was Discovery Travel-Living though not sure.They just renovated a part of the hotel. Sad :(
During our US trip, we stayed in Marriott. What if the same incident happened there with us ? I know you would say it wont happen in US but remember these are the people who had bombed twin towers. I cant even think of it. Imagine the plight of people & their relatives who have gone thru this horrific situation in the past few days.

Commandos- they did a splendid job. Hats off to them...The way they carried out the operation & did their job was splendid.when asked by TV channel anchors they simply replied back that it was their job. Amazing....!!! In one of the incidents (courtesy: HT), one of the commandos was helping the people out from the hotel. People were quite scared on which he said that the first bullet would go thru him as he is leading them out. Not an ordinary man like you & me can say this in a situation where you yourself is not sure of your own life.

Terrorists- they were aged between 20-23. They should have channelized their energy & state of mind to doing something positive for themselves & for their country.Killing innocent people wont take them anywhere. Even their allah wont accept them.

Its high time that our govt should do something about terrorism. Metro should be given security & the police personnels should be given advanced level of training so that they can combat situations like this. Even if they deploy army that wont be a bad idea. A separate intelligence service should be started which should work round-the-clock in getting information about the infiltration & other non-illegal acts.Army, coastal guard need to tighten the security at the borders. Citizens like me & you should be given some kind of training as how to deal with the situation. Nothing is impossible iin this world. Its just that everyone including I, citizen of this country has to put in some effort, has to unite in such situation.

Salute to all the police personnels & commandos who laid their life in this battle so that Mumbai & this ountry can live in peace.
God bless India...!!!

Delhi

South Delhi has got a charm which no other part of Delhi has. A short visit to s.Delhi fills my heart with life :) Visited that part of city after a long long time. Wow.... I can see human life which I can relate to :) I can see people with smile :) I can see old, young, kidos, couples all together :) I really miss those days . But life has to go on so it will.... N' so am I. Flying kiss to south delhi.... phoooooooo.... ;-)

Security..... whats that ..!!!

I came across this on Amit Varma's blog.
Makes a good read.

Diwali Wishes

Wishing everyone a happy & prosperous diwali.
May the brightness of light takes away the darkness of your life & spreads the warmth, peace & love thru out the year.

Hard times

I realized how my bday simply passed by.I used to blow the trumphet a month before my bday & let the whole world know that my d-day is approaching. This year it was all different.No zeal, no enthu, no excitement.It was like any other day with the difference that I was getting calls & friends, colleagues wished me throughout the day.

I never dreamt that I would get into a situation like this.Worst part is my parents & my only brother are not listening to me. For them everything is ok. I am trying to make them understand that "it" is not good for me. They're not ready to take NO from me. It feels bad when no one is with you specially your very own parents.But at the end of the day its me & my life. Thank you so much anamica, subash, yugal, for standing besides me & helping me to see the things clearly. Thank you for giving me the strength when I could have broken down.Thats all i can think of writing here.

another s***

Another proposal, another trip to Chennai.

Everything sucks these days for me.

The Secret

Yes, this is the name of the book which I am reading these days. :) Truly a motivational book.

* The secret is the law of attraction.

* If you want to change anything in your life, change the channel and change the frequency by changing your thoughts.

* What you are thinking now is creating your future life.

* The law is simply reflecting and giving back to you exactly what you are focusing on with your thoughts.

* No matter where you are now, no matter what has happened in your life, you can begin to consciously choose your thoughts, and you can change your life. There is no such thing as a hopeless situation. Every single circumstance of your life can change.

Those were few of the motivational lines from the book. I'll keep adding on to it as I go thru the book.

Btw finally after struggling for more than a month, got the internet connection :)

trip

Guess I have to bring an end to the suspense which i created in the previous-to-previous post. It goes like this.

This proposal came our way & everyone was okay with it except me. The guy works in Chennai. His was brought up in South. Why it was no for me because our upbringing was different. He visited Delhi couple of time. But living & visting a city are two different aspects. Alright i went acc. to my parents wishes. His mother wanted to speak to me couple of times over the phone but I denied. To meet the guy I have to go to south which in turn was a big pain. But i had to go fulfill my parents request. The trip got postponed because of my US trip. His mother once again wanted to talk to me before I lef for US but once again as my mother knew of my intentions, she made an excuse. Moreover the guy & his parents wern't aware of my night shifts. I prefer north indian food anytime over south indian.Finally I decided the day & have to almost fight at work in getting a day's leave. It was hard but I needed it as my parents were after my life. Somehow I managed to get one.
I flew on friday evening. We reached home around midnight the same day. My mother told me that they would be coming next morning, sharp 10 & I have to be up & ready before that time. I managed to have a sound sleep of almost 7 hrs after some argument with my father & mother. It was bad. You go all the way down to south & you end up in argument with your parents- N' all this happens when you meet your parents after a weeks time. Sad :(
Anyways I woke up, had breakfast & was up & ready on time. It was 10- then clock stuck 11. Finally they arrived. The guy did not had the courtesy to say even a "hi-hello".He was one of those Mama's boy. He sat there next to his mother. They were 7 of them. His sister was dressed in traditional saree not to forget to mention the jewellery that she had on her neck & hands. Goshhhh..... I dont like to wear such jewellery.... its simple because I am not used to. I believe in simplicity & elegance. Anyways his sister asked me only & only one question: Where do I work ? I replied but she made a face after listening to me.
Neither the guys mother nor father uttered a single word out of their mouth. What was wrong with them ? That female was ready to talk to me over the phone but what happened when she saw me face to face. Probably she was insecure about his son. She might have thought that his son might move to Delhi if this proposal finalizes. True... Chennai is the last city in this world where I would like to get settle down.
This family seated there for almost 45 mins but did not ask/talked to me. Imagine you have com down all the way from the city which is more than 3000KM away from the town & you were not even asked about your trip. Forget about marriage. I wont like to talk to them in near future. Few hours later, after they left my jiju & didi had a word with the guy & pressuirised me to talk to the boy if he calls up. I told them clearly its not possible. Someone who cant utter a single word like "hi-hello", I cant think of living my life with that fellow.
But in a days stay one thing I enjoyed was the company of my cousins & my aunts. It was good. The next I we had our flight back to Delhi. I did not feel like coming back. But I had to & arrived the next day.
My parents are after my life in kicking me out to another "family".
Marriage .... why the hell did God made such a word.
Let me stop here else would end up writing my frustrations.
Peace...!!!


PS::: Pardon me for the mistakes. I did not feel like going thru this post.

phone

People can be so bugging when they talk loud on the phone- I didnt knew that.

A day's rip to south

It was such an aweful experience. Arranged marriage is not my cup of tea. Guys like him should not get married. They can play a good role of "mama's boy" but not a good husband. I'll write soon. Not in a mood to write.

San Francisco Trip

Its been a while that I updated this space. For the past few days I've been thinking of jotting down my thoughts here but I did not feel like. Probably because i did not had much time in my hand.

Latest from my end is that i am back from my US trip. The trip lasted for 2 weeks.Visiting a country where society is liberal, culture is not the same as of ours was indeed a good experience.I missed the Indian food upto that extent that I counted days for my return trip.

Transportation, be it travelling thru Bart or Bus, was something which I found new. Buses were all air-conditioned (not a big deal) but was disabled friendly (facility which is yet to make its presence felt in majority of the 'areas' in India). Commuting thru Bart was a new experience to me because I never got the oppotunity to travel in Metro here. Road rules: We give a damn to the traffic rules. But there people follow them strictly. In the entire trip I did not get to hear any car/vehicle honking on the road. It seemed as if the cars were not fitted with horn.
Pedestrians were given due respect on roads. And thats something which we cant talk about :D

Food, man I missed my Indian food like hell. I tried tea once but it tasted aweful to me. So I promised myself to taste the other cup back in India. It was coffee in the early morning hours. Breakfast was good. Loads of fruits, fruit juices, sosages, ham-omelette, yoghurt, milk, muffins, fried-potatoes, etc ---- thats the breakfast menu. I survived on mostly on burgers because that was what I had in my lunch & dinner.

For Americans the dinner starts at 6 in the eve. But we managed to have our food during our prefered time which was not fixed for those 12 days.

Weather somehow got me confused. I wasnt sure whether I have to put moisterizer or its the sunscreen lotion to protect my skin from getting tanned. It used to be sunny in the daytime but the night & early morning hours were chilly. Jo bhi tha acha tha. But I cant forget the trip to san Francisco were I was almost freezed to death. I wasnt aware that we would be visiting bay area that sunday. I forgot to take my jacket along with me. Those were the 2 mistakes which I did for that day. When we reached San Fran, we were exposed to the weather which atleast i did not expected.It was chilly. When we crossed Golden gate Bridge I had the feeling that probably I might not survive. But I survived & here am sharing my experiences.

Shopping was all fun.I picked up less stuff as I felt that we have got everything here. Only the electronic stuff I found it less expensive there.Less shopping stuff doesnt mean that I went for shopping once or twice. Man, it was almost every other day that one can find us in BestBuy OR Target. It was mostly Target that we guys hopped into.

Getting to speak to my close friends in US is one thing which I miss here.I get to speak to all of them. N' the best part was that they were not annoyed when I called them when it was not even 5 in the morning. Thanks Saroj...!!! :) Really miss you guys here.

Overall a good experience I had. I did feel homesickness after 2 days of stay there. I was really happy when our place touched down in Delhi's International Airport. I felt good. No matter how badly or how many times I argue with my parents, I realized home is the best place in this world. In this post I almost forgot to mention Heathrow Airport. Man, thats one of the huge & biggest airport. phew..!!!

Blogging is addictive atleast for me.Its been over a month now since i am without a internet connection at home. I am not liking this part :( not at all. After a month i got the time n reason to visit the market which is close to my old housie.N of course with a valid reason i did visit my old colony too.There's somethin special about south delhi.I am saying this because i'd spent 25years of my life there.That place would always hold a place in my heart. I have this feeling that the world should treat me like princess.Cant help it :d Icici bank- trust me guys, i am waitin for tomorrow.You guys made a big mistake by sending ipin no. to my oldie address.Hehehe..I'll do now what i wasnt able to do for a long time. I've this strange feeling that am out of o3 world (blogging) after i moved to blogspot. o3 was fun..I really miss the fun here.

No Internet Access

yeah, No internet access at my new place.
Would have to wait for another month or so.
Man, i'll die... :D

Memories @ NIIT

From the mess, I dig up the book which I studied some 12 yrs back. Pheeeewww...!!! As I was going thru the contents, the notes & scribbings in the chapters took me back to the time when I was out of the school & joined this institute to enhance my computer skills. It was all fun.

South Ex has undergone a major change after the construction of the flyover. Our center was located just next to the flyover- M-5. Now some showroom for kid-clothes has taken over the building.Those were the days when we used to have our sessions thrice in week. It would be either TTS (Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday) OR MWF (Monday,Wednesday, Friday). I was usually in MWF batch. The best part of M5 was the parking lot where n-number of bikes used to be parked in a row. WOW....!!! I never liked M14. Probably it was more congested. m5 was like heaven for me. Classroom, Mind room & Machine Room - it was fun going thru the sessions in those rooms. There used to be 2 servers where we used to save data however, they changed the entire system later on. Those server names used to be - Enterprise & Mistletoe. I dont know what prompted the management to stuff the machine rooms with more systems. Man, it became a big congested machine room.

When I was going thru Java course, Romika's Subway came up next to our building. After we were done with the sessions, our gang straightaway used to head towards the subway. Popcorns & coffees used to be in demand as it was winter season those days. Sitting in a circle, chit-chatting or playing truth-dare- it was all fun. Even now the subway is no more there.

I was there in M5 center from '96 till '99. Then 2001. When I joined our faculty was Ms. Megha Sharma. Man, she was damn good with her concepts and the way she took our session was too good.After P-Semester, i took a break as i'd to prepare & appear for my graduation exams. After the break was over, got my timings changed & joined Ms.Anita's Batch. She took our C++ session & the way she taught us atleast I got my concepts cleared on this language. Third Semester was taken by Ms. T.Lakshmi. She taught us VC++ & she too was good. Final semester was also taken by her. Overall my experience was good. learnt a lot in those 3 years.
I am not in touch with anyone but still in touch with few of the pals from java batch.
I hope thru this blog i came across few of my classmates.
M5 @ South Ext was the BEST &
South Ext center Rocked ....!!!!

reason to smile

I am feeling light, relieved & probably happy from inside.

Weekend

Get to meet Geet Gunjan after a very long time. Spent almost half of the day with her & her baby.
I am feeling sleepy right now.
Mistakenly deleted one of the album folder on orkut. That was the first folder which I created when I became part of it. Uploaded all the files once again. I hate to do something like this repeatedly. Renewed the internet account & currently listening to Jennifer Paige - "Crush". Crushes.... aheeeem.... there's a post on o3 which is special to me.
I feel I've lost my writing skills. errrrrr... I hate myself for this.

WOW

Get to watch "Ironman" yesterday. I really really liked Robert Downey Jr. & by other actors. :-) :-) After a long time, liked an actor's work.

Its better to keep mum. A trip to south is planned for next month. I am not going... thats it...!!!

Week-off on Monday

Another week-off but I wont mind staying back home to do some cleaning stuff. We would be moving out soon from here. My brother has packed almost all his stuff. My father has warned me not to keep those "oldie" books. He wants me to clear the shelf & the almirah which are all loaded with my stuffs. I cant throw away those bools so easily. I can need them anytime. And I know this too that my father wont accept this reason. Anyways I know how to pack my stuff :D but have to do it smartly ;-)



In this cleaning drive, my father came up with his old stuff. Yeah. those letters written to him by my grandpa & grandma - dates back to 1982. And the passport owned by my grandpa which dates back to July,1944. 1944- British Era, pre-independence era..... N' my grandpa looked smart in that black-white photograph of his time. That reminds me that one day I would be getting older.



One of my relative (relatives'relative) had asked a picture of mine( me w/o glasses). That I consider rubbish & crap. I wear glasses almost througout the day. God knows what she was looking for in the pic. without those glasses. A guy has to accept me with those glasses. So no point taking them off while shooting a pic. And my mom is after my life to get a pic. clicked w/o glasses. And one of the other relative had asked my parents to get the exact measurement of my height which was already done some months back. God knows whats wrong with these people...!!! This is final:: Neither am I going to done any photo shoot for myself nor giving out any exact measurement of my height. I would prefer to live like this rather than giving out minute details of my height , etc etc......Probably tomorrow they might come up stupid questions like whtz the power of the lenses which I wore, how do i walk- with one leg or the with both ..... crap crap crap crap.......

Weather outside is too good man. Reminds me of my Naani ji's place. Its pleasant there like this almost throughout the year.

Office, Movies & all that

I never imagined that this would happen to us. But its happening.
At work front, these days we go to the office just to attend 'self development" trainings. No work- absolutely no work. The client wrapped up its business (partial) on 21st of the last month. Officially yes, 21st was the last working day of our lob. We were given 22nd as off. Our team members were moved/transferred to another process on 23rd. 24th onwards we were scheduled for OD trainings conducted by the HR team. Initially, the trainings were fun. We were divided in teams & were instructed to paint/draw/decorate the chart sheets. I remember in one of the FISH trainings, I was cutting off the shapes of a sun & 2 leaves but ended up creating a bunny. That was fun. Even the trainer liked it. Working with those glitter pens & sketch pens were loads of fun.

We were taken out to a school run by a NGO under the "Corporate Social Responsibility' program. First day, we organised a small drwaing competition & on the second day it was the 'actions' that we taught them on a poem.Overall it was fun. Guys served meal to the kids before the school got over. It was all fun singing & seeing them dance on Bollywood nos.

We were taken out for a movie to one of the PVRs in Gurgaon -MGF. It was the movie "Shaurya". Pepsi & popcorn- all sponsored by the team. It was good. In-house we went thru, Castaway yesterday, few days back it was Coach Carter, Iqbal & The pursuit of happiness. All inspirational movies. Shruti, thank you for lending me the DVD- i can now watch the movies which i skipped out in the last few months. Though am not a movie buff but wont mind watching these movies. :-)

During these trainings get to meet people from Quality & other lobs. Overall initially it was fun but I hope that they place us in some process or the other. I really wish to work now. Cant help it...!!!!

Relieved

I am feeling relieved & is at peace with myself.
Is it because I watched the movie 'Iqbal" today ?
I dont know.

Beautiful Morning

I am all up & ready & waiting for the cab to the office. Probably that would take another hour or so. So thought of updating this space.



Its a beautiful wednesday morning. Its all cloudy & seems it would rain in the next couple of hours. Relief from the scorching heat & sunny weather of summers. And how could i forget my parents. Well, another proposal & again the same story. They are not ready to listen to me. says the family background is good & for them it doesnt matter if the guy earns less(compared to me). But it matters a lot to me. If that is the case I cannot leave my work if i want to after marriage. I cannot move to a small town & cant think of spending a day there. A day is fine but not a month or the entire lifetime. I am used to this fast paced life of metro. i doubt if i would be able to survive somewhere else. My eating habits are different as compared to southies. I cannot bear idli-dosas. I need north indian food in my b'fast, lunch & dinner. My mother cooks it all so no probs till now. Cant say the same if this proposal materializes.Communication which is important in relationships. I cant speak my mother tongue. He probably speaks his mother tongue. Now in which language should we select to talk. I speak hindi at home. God knows if he knows anything about hindi.

By writing this post i do not want to show anyone in bad light. My point is straight which my parents are not able to understand- its not going to workout for me. and they simply try to ignore me by giving justifications like money doesnt matter & all that. I am harsh
& rude. Probably the circumstances these days have made me like this. I wish this is just another phase.

New Post

Its good to start a new journey here on blogspot.
Hope & wish that I dont get to face issues here as used to face on o3.
I'll start off with my posts soon.
Till then keep blogging..!!!