Saturday....

Our school alumnus gang is organizing a function on coming Saturday. I am kind of scared to go - coz I would be the out one out there - a female of 31 and still single. S***** did call me and he wants me to be there on saturday. But am not sure.

Little Prayer

I met last monday when had gone to South Ext to inquire about a certain course. I met Yashi the same day - felt good - met her after a long long time. I couldnt recognize her initially but when I carefully looked at the female who was smiling at me I was shocked to see her. She has lost her weight & in the process has lost her chubbiness too. We had coffee at CCD & spoke a lot.

Today she called in again - she spoke to Ravi after a long time - wanted to share the same with me -  I sincerely feel proud of Ravi today. He got married few months back. His was an arranged marriage.  Only 10 days before the wedding he came to know that her fiancée has been tested positive for cancer. Usually guys would back out but he chose to stick to her :) She is going thru the tests which she is suppose to take and I sincerely wish & pray that their bond of love strengthens more with time and she gets well soon . Shocking news was that he lost his father last month. I am hearing sad news for the last couple of weeks - first it was Sumit's mother then our Maid's husband - and now this.

Sumit used to say "arrey humaari amma humaare liye ladki dekh rahin hain" when asked about his matrimonial searches by the guys at work. Guys specially Rajeev used to pull his leg when topic of marriage used to pop-up. He was happy when he got his new job in his native place - Lucknow.Unfortunately the day when he reached there he got the terrible news of his mother.

Maid's husband passed away just before Diwali - I wish and pray that God gives strength to each one of them and their family members during this time. Its not easy - not at all.

Sad and Sombre...

It was a sombre Diwali for me this time. I wished people  "Happy Holi" & "Happy New Year" instead of wishing them for Diwali - wont blame anyone - its my own disturbed mind.


I am retracting to my 'own' shell - cant say for how long.


It wasnt a great year for me - be it at personal level or professional.


I still believe in love and marriage though none is made for me :)


I dont believe that its happening to me .....sigh!


I wont meet anyone for dont know how many days....


Thanks S******!


My foot aches, my arm pains, my teeth aches - am all broke .... errrrr..... but am still healthy :D


Quotes:


"I just realized, it's so lonely being free."


"I can embrace myself, hold my own hand, love me - but I can't gaze into my own eyes and feel my own soul lift me up."

Peace!

Finally !

Met Gunjan after a gap of more than 2 yrs. It was a nice feeling. We talked & talked as we used to in the past. I never realized that we haven't spoken to each other in the past couple of months. Her daughter is now 3 yrs old - time simply flies.

Can someone tell me - ?????  NOTHING ! :D

Peace!

zoozoo

**** I saw him in my dreams once again... whts wrong with me .... He is one of my ex-crushes. I didnt think about him in the past one month and still wonder how he managed to get into one of my beautful dreams. I was in this mountain which was carved out to make shops & galleries. It was huge & big. It was all green everywhere with grasses & shrubs. and then there was this waterfall too in the same area. Then the wierdiest thing happened. I saw my school & then principal there. The place was crowded & was buzzing with people.I saw him there. He was on his cellphone talking to his gf. After we greeted each other I moved ahead & heard teling his gf on the other line that i was looking good with short hair :) Boyyyyy....  When on this earth am I going to meet you pumpkin boy ? You're still one of my heroes. 

**** Friday was fun day for me. I met Shaheen & Ravi after a gap of 2 years. This meet was only possible b'coz Shaheen flown in from US for her 2 weeks holiday trip to India. I met Yashi last month but meeting in a group was fun. I had a good time after a long long time. It was a coincidence that we 3 of us were dressed in white & black n' were carrying their own umbrellas. I had gone to meet them after i came back from the shift but it was all worth it. The way Yashi pampered me that day reminded me of Ankita. We used to be best of the friends. But then marriage thing happened for her & she simply vanished from the scene. I miss you moti thats what we used to call each other.

**** I've immersed myself into work these days. N' seems it has started getting into my head. That calls for a break which only god knows when am I going to get.

**** I fail to control my temper these days. I promised myself in my previous post but i feel there is no improvement. Guess its better to ignore people & their doings. Thats what helped me in the past. Lets c....

**** I am in love with z00z00s these days. They're so cute & their laughter brings a smile on my face. Their ads are simply wow. Only today came to know from Yugal that these are the acts performed by the human beings. Imagination & creativity has no end. I simply love them n' not to forget my Elmo.muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah......

Thats all for the time being.... Peace!

Weekend

Get to meet Geet Gunjan after a very long time. Spent almost half of the day with her & her baby.
I am feeling sleepy right now.
Mistakenly deleted one of the album folder on orkut. That was the first folder which I created when I became part of it. Uploaded all the files once again. I hate to do something like this repeatedly. Renewed the internet account & currently listening to Jennifer Paige - "Crush". Crushes.... aheeeem.... there's a post on o3 which is special to me.
I feel I've lost my writing skills. errrrrr... I hate myself for this.