Saturday....

Our school alumnus gang is organizing a function on coming Saturday. I am kind of scared to go - coz I would be the out one out there - a female of 31 and still single. S***** did call me and he wants me to be there on saturday. But am not sure.

Little Prayer

I met last monday when had gone to South Ext to inquire about a certain course. I met Yashi the same day - felt good - met her after a long long time. I couldnt recognize her initially but when I carefully looked at the female who was smiling at me I was shocked to see her. She has lost her weight & in the process has lost her chubbiness too. We had coffee at CCD & spoke a lot.

Today she called in again - she spoke to Ravi after a long time - wanted to share the same with me -  I sincerely feel proud of Ravi today. He got married few months back. His was an arranged marriage.  Only 10 days before the wedding he came to know that her fiancée has been tested positive for cancer. Usually guys would back out but he chose to stick to her :) She is going thru the tests which she is suppose to take and I sincerely wish & pray that their bond of love strengthens more with time and she gets well soon . Shocking news was that he lost his father last month. I am hearing sad news for the last couple of weeks - first it was Sumit's mother then our Maid's husband - and now this.

Sumit used to say "arrey humaari amma humaare liye ladki dekh rahin hain" when asked about his matrimonial searches by the guys at work. Guys specially Rajeev used to pull his leg when topic of marriage used to pop-up. He was happy when he got his new job in his native place - Lucknow.Unfortunately the day when he reached there he got the terrible news of his mother.

Maid's husband passed away just before Diwali - I wish and pray that God gives strength to each one of them and their family members during this time. Its not easy - not at all.

My Angels

I am going to write about 2 wonderful people that I met at work - Vipin & Rekha ji. And why I choose to write about them because they were there for me when I needed a helping hand and one of them would be moving to another city and the other I wont get to see/meet that often.

Let me start off with Vipin - I knew there's a guy named Vipin in our process but interacted with him only when we moved together in the same project. We went to US on a short trip along with few more guys and he was one of the them who were always there to help me out whenever I was in need - be it at the BART station helping me out with the baggage or at the stores - telling me which shoe will fit best. The best part was I was at ease with him - one will feel embarrassed specially if you are with a male friend if in a store you come across the bikini section right after the pullover section but I wasn't. In fact we laughed :) He was always there to help me out. When I was unwell he was the one who offered & dropped me at home - he came all the way from Gurgaon where he stays. Even at work he will take things slowly & wont worry much. He will laugh & make others laugh too. That was how the last-week of last month went when i was there in the shift with him. I wish him all the best as he'll be moving to a new position. Thanks for everything, Vipin! God bless n' keep that smile n' 'laugh' on your face!

I met her last year when we started to travel together in the same cab in the morning hours. Oh boy initially she came across like an arrogant female. I guess something wasn't right in her life - dont know what it was and dont want to know. Then slowly we started saying our 'hellos'. One fine day she came to know that am from South of India & that took her by surprise. She too is a Southie but from Kerala. And then we started boarding the same bus when our transport team decided to ply bus on our route instead of cab in the morning hours.And last to last week when I met her after 2 months she hugged me. I needed that hug i guess n' Uppar wala heard it. She is one of the amazing ladies that I've met. Someone who handles and balances out her professional as well as personal commitments. She knows everybody in the corporate sector. She talks to everyone. She smiles, laughes & makes other laugh too. And she is always there to help me out whenever am stuck with transport and always makes a point to pick/drop me no matter if other people are getting picked.dropped :) Even this kind of  a help means a lot to me. She is confident and always full of energy. At 40 I have seen very few ladies in that category. I wish her all the best in life n' pray that she stays like this forever! :)

Action Replayy :)

Downloaded and watched "Action Replayy" today. It was a ok-types movie. 60s and the 70s time mesmerizes me. There were times that I wished i was born in that time to witness the fashion, the glamour and the music of 60s and 70s.  If you watch any movie of that time you will always find open spaces and less populated areas/cities.

Alright coming back to the movie - I expected more from this movie. Though the performances were good but I think it would have been better if they would have twisted the story a bit more. Ash looked stunning in 70s style - Akshay & Ranveer were good too. Comedy was good too - there were good punches. Overall enjoyed the movie :) And yes I would love to see the fashion of 70s making a comeback in the upcoming summer season - i wish it does so that I'll have a reason to buy a new Saree :) (I loved Ash's yellow-orange Saree)

My next target would be Golmaal-3 and sRober downing Jr's movie.

I did not attend any call today - want to be with 'myself' for the time being :)

Sad and Sombre...

It was a sombre Diwali for me this time. I wished people  "Happy Holi" & "Happy New Year" instead of wishing them for Diwali - wont blame anyone - its my own disturbed mind.


I am retracting to my 'own' shell - cant say for how long.


It wasnt a great year for me - be it at personal level or professional.


I still believe in love and marriage though none is made for me :)


I dont believe that its happening to me .....sigh!


I wont meet anyone for dont know how many days....


Thanks S******!


My foot aches, my arm pains, my teeth aches - am all broke .... errrrr..... but am still healthy :D


Quotes:


"I just realized, it's so lonely being free."


"I can embrace myself, hold my own hand, love me - but I can't gaze into my own eyes and feel my own soul lift me up."

Peace!

TV Series

Its been a while that I've written on any drama series aired on TV. I've been watching 'Ugly Betty' for the past couple of days. Star World it seems is running out of some good quality programmes. All our channels shows the same 'saas-bahus' sagas or some crappy 'family-oriented' series. 'Pavitra Rishta' is going no where , 'Geet - Hui Sabse Parayi'- Maan has met with an accident - cant say where the story is heading to, 'yeh rishta kya kehlata hai' - no negative characters in the series but I dont know why they stretch a plot - to get a TRP rating I believe, 'Comedy Circus ka Jadoo' - Kamya makes a comeback with Rajeev (Saloni wasnt there in the episode) - John Abraham was one of the guests on the show - whatever it is John Abraham's smile kills me - anytime anyday :D Even after watching so much of hindi films/serials I cant write about a single guy/girl from our own industry. Why I find american stars so good in their acting dept ? I've written about 'Castle' (one should watch out for Nathan & Stana - apart from their acting skills its the on-screen chemistry which takes away the cake), 'White Collar' (Matt Bomer was good with this acts), "Friends" series. I remember there were few series on starOne years back - Hotel Kingston, Special Squad, Siddhanth - i watched them because they were different from the usual stuff. Siddhanth - few of the episodes touched on real life issues. Whatever it is am missing out onn some good serials on TV .Anyone listening :D

I am dedicating this post to Michael Urie (who plays Marc in the 'Ugly Betty' series). I really love the way he makes those funny expressions while delivering his dialogues. He does it nicely and better than our female actors playing those -ve characters.

Delhi Revisited

After a long time visited South Delhi - this time Raj n' I made a small plan of visiting the historic monuments of our city. As per the plan, we met at Qutub Minar. I reached at around 11 AM. The route which auto waale uncle ji took was the one i was passing by after a gap of more than 2 years. All the old memories flushed thru as it was only yesterday that I shifted from South Delhi to Dwarka. Saw Mahipalpur road in a good condition - not sure whether the road was laid out after the downpour ended or was it in same good condition earlier as well ? whatever it was - it was good. Vasant Kunj - I cant recall a happy/neutral moment when there were pickups scheduled for work from this area earlier n' mine used to be the 1st or the 2nd pick up in the roster. Vasant Kunj, Kishan Garh - for me they were the same - hardly made any difference. N' after a gap of 2 years I was on the Adchini road - it was all together a different feeling. There was a time when I was regular on these routes. But things have changed at my end :)

Anyways coming back to Qutub Minar - I was fearing that my camera might run out of charge as I did not charge them before starting off with my short trip today. I enquired about the batteries which were getting sold outside Qutab Minar - and the prices almost shocked me - a pait of batteries (non-rechargeable) for 160 bucks. The worst part - my camera uses 4 AA size batteries - I did not imagined myself shelling out some 300 bucks for those batteries - no ways. But at the same time wasnt sure how am going to manage.After consulting Raj, I dropped the idea of buying the batteries n' we went inside the premises. We shot pictures and there was this time when one of the security guards on duty suggested as how to get some good shots - Thank You Bhaiya Ji n' am dead sure Raj would be one of the happiest ladies in town today :d (Do check out her fb/orkut a/c though not sure where she is going to upload the pic for the world :D) Man, this guy deserves a pat on the shoulder :) My father told us once (when I was 10-11 yrs old) about the new minar which one of the Raja's tried to build in competition to the Qutub Minar but the task could not be completed as he died after the intial work.So only thing which is visible to our eyes are the remains.

We reached Dilli Haat after Qutub Minar - thats the place where we preferred to have our lunch.We moved to Kalkaji to have a look at the Lotus Temple - it was good. I've been earlier to LT/DH/QM. Delhi has gone a tremendous changes in the past couple of years - I couldnt recognize few of the places. But I welcome the change as we need public transportation like Metro in our city. Area around the LT has undergone a massive change. I dropped Raj back to INA Metro station & took the same auto to Dwarka.

It was all tiring but worth it!

31 over

Completed 31 years of existence on this planet yesterday. It was nice - hearing from all the school & the old pals after a long time. There were sms-es, phone calls, wishes on fb :) can't ask for more.Life was different 10 years back. Sometimes when I think of my age I end up getting jitters. But getting old is a slow & a gradual process. There are still unexplored arena of life which might surprise me in this journey of life. I wish n' pray.........
cheers!

Nightmare!

This is one of my worst mornings!

I was strictly told by my parents to remove my picture where ever I posted them online. Be it facebook, orkut or whatever site it is. They think my friend list which majorly consists of guys, is the reason behind all my matrimonial rejections.

I am speechless & my brain has come to a complete halt.

Finally !

Met Gunjan after a gap of more than 2 yrs. It was a nice feeling. We talked & talked as we used to in the past. I never realized that we haven't spoken to each other in the past couple of months. Her daughter is now 3 yrs old - time simply flies.

Can someone tell me - ?????  NOTHING ! :D

Peace!

Peace!

I am at peace with myself finally. Something which I've been trying for so long. This is how I was yrs n' yrs back :D Bilkul bindaas rehne ka ... duniya gayi tail lene...

This week would be going to be my last week in the morning shift for the month. Next week monday onwards would be 'rolling over' to the evening shift. I'll miss all the morning fun - watching kidos waiting for theie school bus - boarding them & at times making a hue-cry while getting into the buses. Ahhhh I'll miss that naughty kido too - he simply cant stand at one place & keep running over all the places near the bus stop. I'll miss my morning gossip session with Rekha ji :D I wish that I get the zeal back which I had months ago for the work after getting into the eve shift. Not in a mood to write more ... so would end this post here. :)

On Demand :)

On public "Castle" series for season I/II is back on star world. Cant ask for more. I need to have something to kill time :) You rock Castle! Of course not to forget its stars :)

I still have to recover from fever/weakness. I hate to visit doc but had to :(

Y**** was in Dwarka on sat. We were suppose to meet but couldnt and in the end we blamed each other. But its not fair from his side - I understand that he came all the way from Central Delhi but i wasnt well and had to visit Doc because of 2 reasons - first, the stomach pain wasnt subsiding - it was bad & killing me & secondly there are no doc avail. on Sundays - chuttie for everyone u c! I thought that we'll meet up anyways I dont think that he'll ever visit me again after this episode.

blah blah

Here I am once again... :)

Gone week was kind of adventurous - bcz of transport & health issues I went to work only for 3 days out of 7 days :) Cant ask for more. I wish & pray that transport continues to goof up with my pick up everyday ;-)

Coming to the events - not much has happened. I've clicked some pictures using my new camera n' so far the response has been good :) Yeah, uploaded few of them on fb.

I am going to miss out on few of my fav. tv serials. Castle is over - but they'll be back in Sept in US - not sure when it would be aired in India - so not complaining. Still waiting for Psych to start off with their new season - in US they'll be going live soon- we Indians have to wait longer it seems. New serial 'White Collar" doesnt seem to impress me that much as Castle did. Neal Caffrey (played by Matthew Bomer) is good but it seems he is the saving grace for the serial. How come I find these American men so smart & handsome these days ? "Friends" - one of the serials which i love to watch even today . "Ally McBeal" - had good 5 seasons - would love to watch the series again if the episodes are aired. Under the hindi serials section - "Zara Nachke dikha" ended their 2nd season yesterday - i simply loved the show & few of the contestants were damn good in dancing specially - Mukhti & Sushant. Not sure if "rishta.com" is still aired or it has ended (almost forgot this serial once I glued to "'Castle")- i liked the theme on which the story is based & every episode is shown in a different light.

"Travel & living " remains still one of my fav. channels.

Its the usual routine & all that crap. Somehow I dont feel like going to work these days. Guess time for a change now!

Castle

Here I am with a changed look of my blog. The only change I did was to template. apart from this change there were few other changes that happened in the past few days. My shift changed to the graveyard one. I woke up & find other members of my family having a peaceful night's sleep. The worst part is I get to eat alone. N' the best part - Got to watch "castle" on time everyday :) I am missing that show like anything. Its a detective serial which revolves around detective Kate Beckett & writer Richard Castle. The chemistry they've shown on the screen looks good & thats something which I always looked forward in every upcoming episodes. Not to forget his on-screen mother & daughter. Actor Nathan Fillion did a good job n' I simply loved his acting (apart from the reason that he's good looking ;-)). 2nd season is over for the serial. They'll soon start shooting for the 3rd season. I heard that they've renewed the contract for the 3rd season. I love the team - Castle. this post is dedicated to you folks!

I got a brand new Canon SX20 camera recently. I simply loved the features of this camera. Its good for people like me who have used point-n'-shoot cameras & would like to explore more. This camera is fully loaded with all kinds of features & shooting mode. I need time to play with it.

I went for my monthly shopping for this month with my parents n' mistakenly bought all the wrong stuff. Amazing! I have to use these mistakenly bought things. $$$ lage hai bhai!

Delhites are looking for some monsoon showers. Its been hot & humid for the past few days. I pray that monsoon reaches this city soon.

God bless!

The gone week was bad specially past few days.

AI plane crash is still on mind. I was shocked when watched the news on CNN yesterday. The news was covered live. I had an amazing time while travelling on AI-IA planes. I've no clue how to react but am in sombre mood today after going thru today's newspaper.

On top of it the comments made by few of my colleagues on the plane crash zooms-in on my mind when I think of plane crash. I dont believe that I work with such people & the worst part - our DM/Mnanager thinks they they're one of the mature breeds that they've promoted. I hate to share those comments but then I needs to relax - so here goes the "golden words" -

- J**** 's comment - India ki population kam ho jayegi - does he know what he's talking abt.

- A*****'s comment - with a smile on his face says they're not sure if AI is going to pay his father's salary for the month. His father works with AI.

- J****'s another comment - Mallu hi to the - referring to the people who were on board that ill-fated flight.

I dont want to admit but I work with such people who even dont know what the grieving families would be going thru. They dont know what pain, grieve is all about. They cant even share sympathy. what more can be expected from such inhumans.

Thinking about flying - I had my amazing experience with AI/IA. Their in-flight entertainment package, the food they serve.... too good. Let me count the number of airports that I've been to - Trivandrum Airport

Cochin Airport

Coimbatore Airport

Salem Airport,

Mumbai Airport,

Hyderabad Airport,

B'lore airport,

Srinagar Airport n' top it all -

Delhi Airport

Foreign Airports - San Francisco Airport, and

Heathrow Airport

** I finished Chetan Bhagat's 2 states last sunday. I completed this book in hours. :) I started reading it when I bought it from the Trivandrum Airport's book store. It went on non-stop till we reached Delhi. I gave a break when we reacjed B'lore & we boarded the flight back to Delhi :) Remaining 100+ pages were completed by me on my off last sunday. It is one of the funniest books I've read so far by the author after Five point someone.

** At work its the usual scene - this time we had a meeting (vintage folks)with our manager - not even once he appreciated our work which we did for the past couple of months since the project's inception here. Needless to say it was one of the useless meetings. The next day our DM wanted to know our max CTC so he sent out a sms. I refused to share that information with him. I am not at all comfortable.Let him get this from our HR. These guys never thought about us so why I should be bothered at all. I am seriously looking for a change now. I am forwarding my cv/talking to all the people I can.... Lets c how things work out this time....

Trip n' that special someone

I am tired after a day's work & a 4-hour night's sleep after a tiresome journey..

We left for Nagercoil on Thursday & came back yesterday night. Though it was a short trip but a nice one. I got to play with my puss cat (Pussy cat) & fed him whenever possible. Then there was baby puss cats too (kittens) - had an amazing time with them. As I am writing this post am missing them terribly.

Our flight was rescheduled/postponed from its original time by an hour or so. So accordingly we had to change our connecting flight from B'lore - courtesy Jet Airways/Jet lite. To kill the time through out the journey I had to do something. So at Trivandrum Airport at the book stall i picked up Chetan Bhagat's '2-states - the story of my marriage'. Somehow I liked his style of writing. He pitched in with humour in this story in a nicely way. I've enjoyed reading this book throughout my journey & glued to it till we landed in Delhi. I've completed 162 pages of this book & still some 100 more to go.

And somehow after going thru this book, i remembered am missing all that in my life rather i should say its just not there in my life. Its precious and makes life a lot easier.

I guess i need a good night's sleep now. Will continue this later.....

I pray that every individual n' every human being on earth feels the warmth of love n' it never leaves them......

?????

Did I miss out on my second chance ? If yes, then I'll need the third one. Please!

:(

I am depressed & don't feel like going to the office anymore. The kind of feedback which was shared by my manager's manager has demotivated me. I hate him for this. Somewhere down the line he has hurt my innerself & my own ego. Moreover the kind of environment which is in N** right now am finding it hard to cope up with the people who are around me and their behavior.I no longer trust anyone - I am seeing people changing their own tune which they used to "play" at one point of time.

Trip & a wedding

Last week was pretty hectic for me. Was unwell for 2 days & had to take offs on mon & tues. Had to visit Doc as the temperature wasnt going down. I had temperature of 103 'C when we visited Doc. Went to work on wed. Thursday - had to wake up 4 in the morning as had to board the 7 am flight to Coimbatore. Only reaching at the Airport I came to know that the flight to Coimbatore is via Mumbai. Anyways we reached Airport at 6 AM. At the last moment I was packing my stuff. First time I saw the Flight status as "Boarding" even when there was 45 min to go for the flight to take off & we did not clear the security check-ins. We were not alone.... There were others too :D

Indian Airlines has improved a lot - be it their food or in-flight entertainment channels. You will find different movies played on different routes. For e.g. last month when we travelled from Delhi-Trivandrum (via Kochi) the movie which they had was "Love Aajkal". And this time I get to watch two movies. One was starring Bobby Deol & kagana - dont know the name of the movie. Another movie was getting played on another video channel- starring Shammi Kapoor & Asha Parekh - once again dont know the name of the movie but it had some amazing numbers including the one 'O mere sona re sona re son re ..." When the movie reached its climax our flight reached its destination - Coimbatore. Prior to that we landed in Mumbai - my first live experience of Mumbai. The Airport is all surrounded with slums - one of the biggest in Asia - but you wont even come to realize it b'cause it doesnt look bad from above :) I found the Mumbai crowd - people who got down at Mumbai - well behaved, dressed and decent as compared to Delhites. I would love to visit Mumbai again n' would like to explore their culture (that by default includes food too). After landing in Coimbatore we boarded a cab to Salem which was approx. 150 km away.

It was a nice drive because of the smooth roads. We crossed over Cauvery river which was full of water. When we reached Aunt's place we were told that we were the first relative to arrive for the function. It was my cousin's wedding the next day. It was a north + south indian marriage. My cousin is from south & his bride from Jabalpur. He follows Christianity & her bride is from a Hindu family. Anyways the bride's family was expected to reach by 3 PM but their train was late. I waited till 10 PM - was dead tired so went upstairs to catch up some sleep. The relatives arrived around 10 PM & they had their dinner. I slept like a log & woke up next morning. I had batch early in the morning because we had some customs to follow - we went to the hotel & gave sarees & all other stuff to the would-be bride. My bua speaks good hindi so conversing with the other people wasnt that difficult. But still the translation was happening as they sung songs. After it was over we went back to home for lunch - relatives were expected for lunch. After lunch we started getting dressed for the occasion. Had few photo sessions which were funny - thanks to my cousin. We all departed for the Church where the ceremony was suppose to take place. Church was all decorated beautifully with flowers. The ceremony took place - bride & the groom said their prayers & accepted each other as husband & wife. Everyone proceeded to the community hall for dinner where the reception was hosted. I was ggiven a good job - had to stand on the stage along with the newly weds to collect the gifts. Thats a job given by my bua to yours truly. I had no issues but I stood there for more than 2 hrs - God there were so many people - and imagine yourself standing for that long on a footwear which I wore after nearly a gap of 3 years. After every few minutes I looked at the Q hoping that it will get shorter - (people lined up for the presentation ceremony). Anyways everything went off well & wanted to return back to Delhi to my sweet home & wanted to sleep on my sweet bed for a good sleep.

Next day we boarded a Kingfisher flight from Salem to Chennai - it was a small aircraft - baby aircraft :D. The pilot's accent reminded me that its not the first time I am listening to such an accent. His accent reminded me of Ruslan. :) We reached Chennai shortly within 45 mins. From there we boarded Indigo flight back to Delhi. My suggestion would be to never board indigo as its one of the cheapest airlines & the lack of space would be a big discomfort for you.I've told my father that i wont fly unless he gets the tickets booked with AI/IA in future :) It was a good journey but a tiring one. One more thing - when I am in South I at times get the feeling as if I am in California & when i was there in San Francisco I felt as if am in my home town. It has happened to me many times when I visited South last month & this month. I still dont know the reason why.

Hate my boss

Awards were distributed today & I did not even get one :(

trip n' lalala laaaaaaaaa

Finally, here I am in front of my laptop writing this post after 2 weeks of holidays. I am still in that holiday mood. I did not feel like coming back - reasons - 1. Weather in South is great- you dont require a sweater - no chill no fog no pollution - simply enjoy the greenery & the wonderful weather 2. Simply "haram khoori" - feels great to be away from office :) 3. Those pussy cats - I'll miss playing with them - my best time with an animal after my rabbit expired way back in 1999.

Now let me summarize my trip:

Be it morning, eve, noon or night, every other relative of ours was enquiring & curious to know as whats happening at my personal front. They were ready to help to such an extent that they arranged a meeting with a guy after a day I reached there. So I was "occupied" in answering all kinds of questions thrown by my relatives including as what kind of guy i would like to get married to. I even thought of telling them someone whose got 4 legs , 4 ears :d Kidding!

I am so sick & tired of meeting these guys that I hate to talk about my experiences.

1st proposal: This guy doesnt have a job and he asked me about my salary in front of people that too in the first meeting. I was pissed off & still am. My parents were all set to get me maaried to this fellow until they visited his home. They were disappointed & someone was happy :)

2nd proposal: Guy did not turn up so was happy. N' I dont think this would materialize as my parents are not that interested as they were initially due to x-y-z reasons. Good for me!

3rd proposal: Would be good if relatives would stop helping me in finding 'such' a life partner. Period.

4th proposal: This one came just a day before our trip back to Delhi. Guy is working in Thailand but the parents are not sure about the name of the city where the he lives. Though they have all the details about his living. Nyways- only the guy's parents came - the guy's father was more interested & worried about me wearing specs. He even made me to take out my glasses for a min. & I had to obey only & only because of my parents. Disgusting! I dont see myself getting married to such a guy whose father is looking for a perfect bride for his son & am not perfect!

Between the 3rd & the 4th proposal, there was a gap of 10 days & all my mausis & mamaajis asked me all kind of weird qestions regarding me not getting married at this age & why I did not like the guy (1st proposal)

Best moments were the ones which I spent with those cutie cats- ah I simply loved them & I'll miss them like nything.N' of course not to forget how I lazed around doing no work - absolutely no work. I proved everyone & to me that I am a big lazy bum! :D

On our way back saw the beauty of nature. Flying can be boring if one has to stick to the seat for 5 hrs. But this time nature loved me for some reasons :)

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I deserve an award or least a pat on my back.

Reason: Its freezing & its all foggy and cloudy outside. Even our house which is on the 4th floor freezes like anything. And in the midst of all chill, I managed to wax my hands & legs. Its not a big deal specially in this weather.

I'll be flying on 12 to south & would be coming back on 25th. I hope n' pray that I get to enjoy these holidays :)