23rd and 24th Dec

Finally the day came and starts the beginning of my leaves. 

23rd Dec: kind of got into argument with S****** on paying the amount for a bus ticket which I did not travel. She did not care to tell me before the trip that the ticket couldn't be cancelled. Something she has to accept. I can't argue and fight with an emotional mind. I try to find out some solution instead of pin point or blaming anyone for anything. In the evening met P***** over tea and had a good time. On our way back saw and met G********* and her parents. Seems whatever has transpired in the last few days she has taken it personally and still thinking about it seriously. Arrey yaar move on. People planned, went and came back from the trip. And continuously thinking negative about it won't lead anywhere. Anyways we spoke as if nothing happened.

24th Dec: was suppose to meet My school pals over breakfast - S****** & P*********. Was suppose to reach there by 8 but got late by an hour. Good thing was they waited for me and only I reached we had breakfast. It was nice meeting them.

Went for shopping to Phoenix and bought few stuff. In the evening went to meet the Zumba folks in a small get-together. It was so much if fun. Indeed women becomes strong once she gets married and when she give birth to child and raises them. So much of laughter - just loved it - touchwood. May this group grow and we cherish each other's presence.

Peace and Merry Christmas! 

Hmmm....

Didn't knew what to put as a title of this post. So ended up with hmmm....

Pune visit came as an eye opener for me.Good that I went there. I thought I knew about people who are in my life. Santosh was amazed to hear that I am in his city. He invited me over to his place. I said it would be awkward for everyone at home. He said no it would be fine. Then in a shocking voice he said that I will come to know lot many things about him. I asked him what that would be..he said his marital status- he is married. I asked him he never told or shared about this with me. His reply stunned me. He said I never asked about it. I've been interacting with this guy close to 5 yrs now and not once he revealed about his marital status. Instead he had sent me messages like "like u and share whatever you feel like" "great to have a Frd like you". Friends don't hide such things and married guy won't send a message like that. Won't talk to this guy again. To hell with him. Felt sorry for the women who married him.

I feel am vulnerable right now. It's like an open wound which needs to be healed.i don't want to fall for anyone right now. But his (guy at work)eyes says something else at times. And how he behaves at times. He is far younger to me.... Let's not dwell deeper into it. The more I think about his eyes more I feel attracted towards him. Oh ... I don't want to fall in this trap again... He is a nice chap though- but no. On one side I say Not now. Let me be with peace. But this feeling is strong I tell your that I feel like giving up..... Hate to go thru this.....

Peace!

25th December 2013 - Wednesday

It was a good day :)

Went to Church in the morning. So many wishes - that really made my day specially calls from S**** and N****. You guys are still the best. In the evening met Prachi. Krithika and Geetanjali came over to my place. It was a day spent very well.

Cleaning up the doors, windows, furnitures were not easy. And yes Santa also went for a bath this year :)

Peace!

X-Mas Greetings!

Been a while I updated this space. Thinking of updating it for the past few days.

First of all let me wish everyone a Merry Christmas through this post!

In my upcoming posts I've decided to put all the good things that have had happened to me. No matter how small or big these moments were.

See you soon! :)
Peace!

koochie kooye

Writing after so long ...

Nothing special to add except the feeling I went through today. Wanted to hug someone today - question is who ?  I hate such feelings coz there's no one to hug right now. anyways I am at peace and as long as am in this state of mind - I am good :)

Peace!

Today..

Don't remember as when was the last time I updated this space. But it's been for a while now. Classes and then loads of work in the office.weekends are the time I get to sit at home and relax. But I end up going out for something or the other.

Watched 'jab tak hai jaan' today. In fact watched a movie after a long time. I liked the concept. Everything has got a time - be it love or anything else.Everything happens for a reason and He is the one who writes our story in his own way. A subject like love and relationship still confuses me. But whatever it is I'll sit back and would take  life as it comes. And somehow for the past few days there's a feeling that has erupted inside me - to meet my Delhi friends. To see them how they are doing - to sit and relax with them and of course to laugh with them. Really cherish those old days.Abhishek, Sarika, Rajeev, Kunal to name few who worked with me.you laugh at your own worries and trouble when in a company of good friends. I miss them all.

I'll update this space with more thoughts soon. Till then peace! 

Him

I met him and his family finally.It felt as if they had come to meet us to complete the formality. I didn't knew that I'll end up liking this guy.we exchanged pleasantries after our families met. I still don't know why he said that he would talk to me over the phone nice he goes back when was asked by his father to talk to me. He is 36 yrs old and didn't get the feeling as if am meeting someone who is that old. I liked everything about him - his personality, smartness, how he conversed, how he was dressed (formals - thank god no tight jeans) -his small little eyes and of course his small bulging tummy. There was one point when he was talking to everyone and I almost lost myself in his words. He s the first guy whom I've actually liked in the first meeting.thats a different story that we did not talk - still don't know the reason. I waited for his call last weekend thought he would callback but he didn't. I have no regrets. I went thru some beautiful feelings and emotions after meeting him. Not aware of his true nature and behaviour but whatever it was that day that was good :)he is just like the way I wanted him to be :) still no regrets . I am still happy. Life is all about experiences so mine is no different :)