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I overheard my parents conversation yesterday. My father was telling my mother about the marriage proposals that we are going to get - he said that only good thing about me is the color of my skin - thats it. I cant converse in my mother tongue & probably he said many more things about me which I did not get to hear. Now I've to compromise on the guys as I've crossed 30 ( and good for nothing ). Small little things have started to irritate him it seems. He did not like when I was watching Roadies yest. Starting of the week was equally bad because I got into argument with my brother & mother. Now no one is on my side. I am just not feeling good. It feels that they've killed my inner self. They're not at all happy with me because my life is not going the way they wanted. what should I do ? Probably I let them down somewhere. My father wanted me learn driving which i did but then I stopped driving because I find driving is not cup of my tea. He wanted me to get into a day shift kind of a job - am on a lookout for the past an year or so and still that search is on. He wanted me to get married like any parents wish - is that my fault too when the guys I meet ask for my salary in front of everybody/ or the guys father would ask me to take off my glasses to see if I could be a match for his son ? Is my life that worthless - am I a looser in real sense ? Tears simply roll off on my cheeks when I think of all this. Would I be able to regain my true self ?