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I deserve an award or least a pat on my back.

Reason: Its freezing & its all foggy and cloudy outside. Even our house which is on the 4th floor freezes like anything. And in the midst of all chill, I managed to wax my hands & legs. Its not a big deal specially in this weather.

I'll be flying on 12 to south & would be coming back on 25th. I hope n' pray that I get to enjoy these holidays :)

My love...

Was completely stressed out by the events which occurred in the past week on my personal as well as on my professional end. To start with my personal end, I was made to meet a man & talk to him for 5-10 mins. I found those 10 mins the hardest moments of my life. To start with the story- this proposal was sent by my very own mamaji , reason- the guy is good & he is working in Delhi for the past few years. My parents went to see him initially. Then they decided to call the boy at our place so that 'we' (I and the boy) can 'see' each other. I had split off last week so wanted to relax on my week off but then meeting the boy was made the priority for me for that one day. I hated it but then ws left with no choice. Finally they guy came with his cousin & an uncle. Initially I was confused as who is the 'eligible boy' but somehow figured it out after few minutes of talk. His cousin did the entire talking part. N' i did not like the guy on the first instance. I thought they'll leave after few minutes. But the boy'cousin pushed 'us' to talk for few minutes though I wasnt quite interested. God, those were the toughest and the hardest minutes of my entire lifetime. I knew how I managed to talk to him. I did not ask any questions. He had questions which I answered honestly. There was some pressure from my parents to say "yes" to this proposal but I straightaway said "No" because it was a big NO from my side. Thats it. Period.

On the professional side, I was struggling to convince my manager that I wasnt at fault - an incident which happened almost a month ago n' no step was taken by my immediate boss. I was hurt by all this then came this another episode. I was forced to get examined by the doctor because they suspected me of swine flu. I had cold because of weather change n' they suspected me. Once again I failed to convince my managers n' had to take a day's off.Doctor diagnosed it as sinusitis. I was prescribed anti-bio tics which I usually avoid.But this time was an exception. It was hard to concentrate on work when so much was going on. By the end of the day I felt that am completely stressed out. I couldnt take it anymore. But I promised myself not to argue with the managers in near future on any damn thing/matter.

I was talking to 'S' when he asked some weird questions which he asked me few months back. He is kind of verge of proposing to me but resisting himself because I am not taking too much of interest. I've reasons too: I never met him- its only thru our work that we got in touch & started talking. I dont know the kind of person he is but am sure that he is a nice gentleman.He is located far from this city n' I dont know but somehow I dont see myself there.I dont want to mess up with my life at this juncture. God, give me the strength to take correct decisions for myself. I dont want to commit the same mistake which i did in the past. Only thing I've realised so far is that I can live only with a person if I know him & are confortable with each other. He has to be a friend for me and rest will follow. Life is not that easy as we think. A times I think why I need a 'marriage' when am ok being single. Relatives wont like you to stay single for long u c ;-) .I've engrossed myself in so much of work that I've almost forgotten that I've a personal life too. Anyways, I would still say the same but not sure what destiny has in store for me. Meanwhile I've decided to spend the rest of my life with z00z00 ;-)

I love you, z00z00! Will you marry me ? :) I'll wait for your answer. :)

Wedding

I had a burning desire to attend someone's marriage. Wanted someone to invite me to attend his/her wedding. Its been a while since I dressed up in ethnic & attended a function. Finally my dream came true. I saw S******'s wedding invitation in my Inbox. I was happy but then there was no way that I can attend this function. Major reason being that people who are invited they don't stay in/around my area where I reside. It becomes a high priority for me as travelling during night is kinda concern for me. Lets see how things turn out....

Bhelpuri....

Finally I made an effort to 'cook' something though it wasnt actually. i made an effort today to make chatpatta bhelpuri. So in the eve, I took out the packet, cut it open & found the receipe inside it. So as per the instructions, I took a potato, to boil it kept it inside the oven for 10 mins. My innerself kept telling me that I should have kept the potato in a bowl half-filled with water but ignored. I got busy in peeling the onion & then after several minutes saw my mom running towards the oven. man.... it was smoke coming out of the oven. My mother quickly turned off the oven from the main switch. N' I like a dumb ass kept looking at it as what went wrong. The potato was all back & it was weighing light like a ball. The bowl in which I kept this 'ball-turned' potato had a hole. WOW.... nice way of starting off with my culinary skills. :D My mom then lend me a helping hand. I cut those dhaniyas & onions in small pieces. Of course the 2nd successfully boiled potato was smashed into pieces as well. Then the mixture was mixed with all of these ingredients along with the chutney n' pomegranate. It tasted nice! Everyone at home tasted the bhelpuri including our maid. :)

Its Abhai's bday today. N' after speaking to him in the day I really feel & wish that he gets engaged/married soon to the lady of his choice. I felt as if he has lost interest in small things which can make him happy. Like a friend I try to help you but u dont listen to me. Anyways, all the best, dude!

Its time to say goodbye...

Came to know today that my crush has left the organization. I'll surely miss him n' will remember him as someone who always wore a smile on his face. My morning shifts n' travel back to home in the bus wont be same again. He is someone who touched my life at that time when I was looking forward to something 'new' & fresh in my life. I wanted to get out of 'something' & in a way he helped me to achieve it. Thank you so much P*****! Wish you all the best in life! N' wish that your life be filled with laugh & smile...Always! I'll always remember you as one of the smart & decent guys I came across & with whom I cherished going to the office every morning. Thank You!

Turning 30... Ouch it hurts!

Getting Older Birthday

It’s birthday time again I see;
Another year's gone by.
We’re older than we used to be;
The thought could make me cry.

For getting older is not such fun,
When there’s hurting in your back,
And it’s agony if you have to run,
And a pleasure to lie in the sack.

Yes getting older is quite a bore,
But to not get old is worse.
So "Happy Birthday!" let’s shout once more,
And to heck with our ride in the hearse!

Hooray for getting older! Happy Birthday and many more.

By Karl Fuchs
Would be turning 30 tomorrow. Gosh! 30 years of my life has passed. Wow... time indeed flies. But am happy & with my open arms I'll welcome the coming year(s) of my life. I know this year is better than the last year. But whatever it is I am happy & proud to be with my parents :) I would be sharing my bday with Big B- Amitabh Bachchan (Big B & Big C- howzatt!), Vimal n' many more people who are born on the same day.
Thanks Kavita for your wonderful gift. I never expected the gift. You really surprised me. Thanks a ton once again n' its a pleasure knowing you. Really cherished your companionship.

Relax & dream of nothing

Feels nice to be at home today. Another week & then would be moving into graveyard shift. :-|

** I was sitting in the balcony & saw a huge crowd mainly school kids surrounding the flower-wallah. It was unusual. I kept on thinking as what could it be. I even thought that probably he might be selling the flowers for free. But my mother ruled out the possibility. Then it striked that its Teacher's day today. N' my father's b'day. Wishing all the teachers a great day & a good learning year with their students.

** I was going thru the Reader's Digest's August edition. I always read the quotes section. Here are few of them which I liked the most :

"It doesn't take a lot of strength to hang on. It takes a lot of strength to let go." ~ J.C.Watts

"The formula for a happy marriage? It's the same as the one for living in California: When you find a fault, don't dwell on it." ~ Jay Trachman

I couldnt go beyond the quotes section after I witnessed the covered sky with black clouds. It was all different & felt the mornings of Manali. :) Misty mornings & cloudy skies. Couldnt stop myself & kept the book aside. Not every morning is as beautiful as it was today.

** Its been an year now with this project & I've had the pleasure & the honour to work with one of the experienced, talented and amazing people of IT sectors specially Indians. B*** & S**** n' his team has been a source of inspiration for me at times. 'S' is a perfect combination of authority & knowledge. Such a down to earth individual he is. My immediate managers dont stand anywhere if I compare him with them. At times I had wished that I report into a manager like him. Last time when I had this wish - 3-4 years back- 'he' was my mentor (Deepak- someone whom I still consider my mentor & guide- n' whom i had a terrible crush ;-)). Anyways.... But the time which I had in the past one year was fun. We cribbed but we worked hard & enjoyed our work. It was all fun. Change is constant.One should be adaptable to changes - thats what he said once. I really miss the times I had in ASG & here. Specially the people whom I've worked with & the ones who used to sit next to me.

** Orkut scares me these days. Only bcz of the reason that when I access my account I saw lot of pics on babies posted by my friends. Good & am happy for them. But then it realizes me that am approaching 30 n' I havent found a life partner yet. Thats something which drives me nuts at times. Right now am single & happy about the way my life is shaping up. When something has to happen it will. I still believe in love & an institution called 'marriage'.